Am sorry dear friend

What is it that is lacking? That magical something, which would have made this life so complete. Why has it evaded me so long... Will it never come to me. The little softness that stays always a touch away . The little warmth that cause me to shed dry tears in those hours of solitude. Meaningless day dreams, illusions, the sand castles i build for myself. That longingness which would force to compromise. The long silence, the huge gap, the heavy vacuum. Cant stand it anymore. Come, bind me, throttle me, suffocate me, swallow me. Get out of my heart, you are hurting me.