Friday, May 28, 2010

Chapter 29 Grand father’s brother and his wife

Right from my child hood, children have loved me unconditionally. My father being the youngest in his family, all my cousins are many years elder to me. So instead of playing with my cousins, I grew up playing with my nephews and nieces. My eldest niece is just one year younger to me and my youngest nephew was born 18 days ago. So now you know what I mean, it is a large family too.

All of them call me chitta which means aunty. Some of them play with me even now, some of them have vague memories of playing with me, some of them gets surprised by the way I play with my other nieces and nephews. But there is one nephew of mine whom I have never seen.

He was born and brought up in London. So I never really got a chance to meet him. Recently he came to my house for the first time. But I was away in college so I couldn’t meet him. But something he said as quoted by my mother impressed me.

When he saw my mom and dad he recognized them and said in English. “Grand pa, isn’t this your brother and his wife?”

I thought that line was one of the most innocent lines I ever heard. When I came to think of it I have heard a couple of other ones as well from my nieces and nephews which are equally innocent or more so.

My young niece was telling my young nephew one day

“Adi, do you know something? Our ammumma (grand mother) is our appoppan’s (grand father’s) wife!

To which adi replied

“hey stop telling such fat lies!”

My little nephew who is born and brought up in the states came to my home. We had a plastic bird at home which would fly in a circle with battery. He was fascinated by the bird and asked me immediately where is its battery.

I was totally impressed. He was just 3 years old and he realized it runs on battery on first sight itself. Another nephew of mine who has been in Kerala all his life had actually gotten so surprised and asked me if the bird is alive when I had showed it to him. So while I was musing on the higher intellectual level of my US born nephew, he asked his next question.

Chiita, does the birds in the sky also run on batteries?

The question touched me. And then I wished he had never seen the US

Monday, May 10, 2010

Chapter 28 Fallen in Love

I know it is a beautiful feeling. But I have always tried to stay away from it. But this one time is special. I have fallen in love.

Many a time I had wondered what is in that twinkling eyes that makes me think about it again and again. Many a time you tried to fool me by closing my eyes from behind. But I knew it was you, I could always feel you around me.

I can see you right in front of me though I know you are miles away from me. The way you used to look at me, with your head tilted sideways with a little smile and the way your eyes used to twinkle.

I wish I could read your mind. I wish I could peep into it and see my own face reflected there. I don’t know what emotion you have for me. But I could feel the love, but it can’t be that as well.

I remember that soft touch on my shoulder and the way you used to pat my cheeks lightly, that was different coz others pull my cheek, I could feel the difference in it.

I remember that smile of yours that only I could see, when I expressed my doubts about a theory you were proving in class. What was the meaning of it? I could feel that smile, I could see that smile I could feel it in my heart, I wish I knew what is in your heart.

The naughty smile you used to reserve only for me, those little chit chats we had about our nostalgic memories, those went on for hours, but I thought time just flew away.

I remember how we became friends, how can I forget that one? But only we will know about it, to keep it safe in our locked hearts, to carry it to our graves…

Others know about it, but they don’t know its importance!

I want that photo we took together; unfortunately I don’t remember who took it, for I was too nervous. But I remember many of our friends took it when they saw us posing…

I remember that stupid quote my friends keep saying, that all good men are either taken or gay… I know you are taken… but are you really???

Can I dream a little dream of my own? Can I see you coming to meet me after many years? I don’t know. I don’t know what those twinkling eyes meant! I don’t know what those soft smiles meant, I don’t know what those days meant, when you would come up to me, sit with me for a long time and chat with me for anything and everything. I knew there was always a hug there, hiding between us. I don’t know why it never came to us if there was nothing between us.

I love you…