Chapter 21 - Friendship is a MYTH!

Chapter 20 - JPEeeees I Miss Thee!!!

As I looked at my class one last time I felt a pang, an unexpected one. I was feeling as indifferent as ever on the last day and I was not prepared for the lump that came to my throat and Nibin who was simply moving from one corner of the class to the other corner and watching it with a curious smile did not help me. He was obviously enjoying the last moments and trying to keep it etched in his memories.

My class... the class with whom i studied for three long years and watched myself transform into an adult, the class which accepted me for what I am, the class which was so accommodating, the class which was crazy in its own way, the class which was simply irksome at times, the class which was so indifferent at times and so active at other times (all collectively)... I JUST MISS IT ALL.

I miss Ruthy who was always there at one turn of my head for me to make faces at during a boring class... Oh how much I miss doing it... There was a particular joy in doing that and seeing her laughter. I miss her a lot! she was such a dear... Cute and sensitive and sensible and just so lovely!

I miss Ashwini who was always ready to be distracted from class and start a signing campaign! She used to sit right next to me and we use to religiously sign page after page admiring each of it and cracking stupid jokes, all when a Professor strained his/her throat trying to teach us.

I miss Nibin! He was Mr doubty. How I used to hate it when he openend his mouth to ask a doubt! I even started a 'I hate Nibin Club' in class. How we became friends after it and how he used to laugh at my jokes and how he used to pull my leg. How he used to be a pest always and always. He was so annoying! but I miss him a lot... it was just nice to have some one to annoy you all the time!

I miss Sujithra... our dear Suji/Susheeeee.... Oh her mere presence brightened up the place and hw we used to just look at each other and know what the other had in her mind and also laugh without really laughing so that only we know that we are laughing! Oh I miss those Theatre and mime practices with her! The jokes we shared... the fun we had... the laughs we had... the times we laughed together without even a proper reason... I miss her!

I miss Jeena... Oh how I use to just look at her and forget all my worries! The confused expression on her face, the fun we had! the theatre adn Mime practices...

Oh I cant go on!
Memories are very tricky! They make you feel really good and yet manage to make you feel bad! We laugh even as the tears flow down! We cry even as we laugh out loud... We cry thinking of all the good times we had and laugh at ourselves for crying...
But I miss my class and all of them... I have named only a few but I miss them all... each and every one of them!
You made my degree one of the most wonderful periods of my life!

Chaptger 19 - The Big Black Hole

That Big Black Hole is too big, bang at the center and piercing deep. The big Black Hole could swallow me! But will it? Oh it will! Why doubt it? That Big Back hole! Will it destroy me? Oh No it wont! It is not that powerful! But it Pulls me,Drags me,hurt me and then ditch me! Is it fair? Who can judge it? Who dares to judge it? The Big Black hole is too small to be a part of my mind! But it is too big to be ignored! The Big Black Hole scares me. Is there anyone who can help me come out? One hand, one long hand, atleast a willing mind? Is there one such thing? A willing mind? Isnt that a myth? The Big Black Hole! that is the only reality. The ultimate reality, ready to engulf me!

Chapter 18 - Tagging is a Sin

I hate doing this!!!
oh let all taggers go to hell...

RULE 1 You can only say Guilty or Innocent
RULE 2You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
RULE 3Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends to answer this.
Cool.. Here they go..!

Asked someone to marry you? Innocent
Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent (urgh!)
Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent
Ever told a lie? Guilty [i shud be hanged if that is a crime]
Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty[doesnt that happen all the time?Oh Sreesanth!!!]
Kissed a picture? Innocent
Slept in until 5 PM? Innocent [some1 invariably wakes me up by 3pm.... max is 3]
Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty
Held a snake? Innocent
Been suspended from school? Innocent
Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent
Stolen from a store? Innocent
Been fired from a job? Innocent
Done something you regret? Guilty [very very very very guilty]
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Innocent
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent
Kissed in the rain? Innocent
Sat on a roof top? Guilty [Was so cool]
Kissed someone you shouldn’t? Innocent
Sang in the shower? Guilty [ask my neighbours]
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent
Shaved your head? Innocent [No Way!]
Had a boxing membership? Innocent
Made a girlfriend/boyfriend cry? Innocent
Been in a band? Innocent
Shot a gun? Innocent
Donated Blood? Innocent ["oh u you are a girl? no u cant donate. we will try to get some boys... "i hate them all ]
Eaten alligator meat? Innocent
Eaten cheesecake? Innocent
Still love someone you shouldn’t? Innocent
Have/had a tattoo? Guilty [I still remember Mom shouting at me... got it free with some candy]
Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty
Been too honest? Guilty [I hate me]
Ruined a surprise? Innocent
Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterwards? Innocent
Erased someone in your friends list? Innocent
Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Innocent
Joined a pageant? Innocent [that sounds exciting... dont give me ideas]
Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Guilty [They need to get their eye checked]
Had communication with your ex? Guilty
Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Innocent
Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty

Oh..Thtz ovr now.Now i think its tym for me to TAGG!!.. Ok.. Here 1st i tag Rakesh, then uncle raj(in case he reads it again) and shruthi... plz do it by commenting to this post....

Chapter 17 - Guys and Girls, I'm Sorry I Dont Like You!!!

It was late in the night and I had gone to my friend's room to take a book from her and i was startled by a scream from the next room. I rushed to see what is wrong and saw my classmates huddled in corner with wide eyes and terror on their face and I asked them what happened.
"lizard" came the prompt reply
"so?" i asked.
"we are scared...will it bite? will it fall on us?"
"please don't scare the poor thing, and I haven't heard of people dying due to lizards falling on their heads, so I don't think there is any reason to scream out"
I left the room. I know I was very impatient with them but that is the way I am . I dislike screaming girls, giggling girls and 'I am so weak and I need your support' girls. They are made just to test my patience. The first type would be waiting for a chance to scream out loud and attract attention. They use their technique at all times. Insects, sudden movements and other girls who comes from behind and say 'POP' to scare you (Impossible to get scared with that even if it is 12 midnight and you are out on the roads alone and there is a ghost scare around the place .It is just too feeble to get scared) they will test the shrillness of their voice, wild eyed but still managing a giggle or two. One of these sort can spoil my entire day with their play act. I get so annoyed.
The giggly type just giggles no matter what happens and please don't ask them the reason and embarrass yourself. 101% there is no reason. Please respect that. And the third category is the most annoying of the lot. They put up this pretence that they are so weak and need help to move even one step in life, simply to get favours from others and to make others do their work or simply to get sympathy. In most cases guys fall for them thinking 'oh poor little thing' and usually they are all pretty faces which makes their job even easier. Damsel in distress gotta be helped!
About the chivalrous young gentlemen... To all those who think guys are caring and concerned I would like to tell you how very wrong you are. I have many friends among guys and i can tell you without any bias that none cares anything about me. They might call me (even STD) talk to me for long, listen to whatever i say, laugh with me, say soothing words. But none actually cares. Last day I had to take a rather urgent journey which was quiet dangerous with a female friend of mine. Everyone advised us to take a guy with us.

The problem with the journay was that it was very long and tiring and involved changing buses and it had to be done in the evening and would go on untill late in the night. I was fine going alone but my friend advised me to ask some of the guys and I asked. Nobody said no, but all of them, each and every one of them tried to discourage us from taking the journey only because they didnt want to come with us. It was important otherwise we wouldnt have decided to go. The excuses they made for not coming ranged from 'is it really needed?', you wont get a bus to come back' to 'it will take so long, dont go'. If they dont want to come just dont, please dont decide for us if the journey is important for us or not. Even if i had told my close friends about it, who are away and cant come with me,they wouldnt have cared an ounce and none would have called up throughout the journey to check if we are alright. We had to carry heavy and bulky load, almost 7 to 8 kgs between us plus our hand bags and other stuff. We may not have been able to take calls, but none called guys or girls...

When we came back they welcomed us with 'Oh you took so long' and 'why didnt you let us know that you will be late' amd such crap. If they really cared they would have come with us or least would have called to check.

I know friendship is great and good and all that but this incident left me thinking how many true friend I have...